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Friday, September 15, 2006

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 00:39:24 GMT

HEy! I finally had my babygurl. I was in labor for 20-25 hours. She was 8lb. and 4oz. 20inches long. She is so pretty. She look like me and her dad. So i'll halla @ yall later.

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 00:53:27 GMT

HEy, school is okay. It's getting so close to my due date. I'm due a week from Thursday. I just want D to change his attitude toward me. All last night my back was herting and i felt sick to my stomoch. I tried to go to school this morning, but i went home cause i was herting again. Devery did call me and checked on me. Really some people don't really know how me and Devery were when we were together. I just want everything to be the same again. But i just wait to see Harmonee. Almost everybody thinks that i'm scared to have a baby. After you think about it nothin is scary. I can take pain, but i'm going to be numb from half of my back to my toes. And when the numb goes away they give me more stuff to numb me. Then some people are allways in my buisness. Some of my friends are so 2 faced and don't asked who they are. Halla back @ cha gurl.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 02:27:38 GMT

HEY!!! Today was a okay day. I just don't want to go back to school. It's just hard to be going through all this, and Devery ain't here with me. He just @ home talk to gurls on the phone. And i'm @ home trying to be down all the time. He don't call to ask how are you and Harmonee doing nothing like that. All he can do is just look @ me. I try to act like i'm okay but i'm not. Nothin will be okay anymore. Cause he still got a life for now. My life to me now is just school and my babygurl. I just want Devery to know that i still care about him, but he won't talk to me. Almost all my friend act like they scared of him for i don't know what reason. I hope it's not just because he tall, but i'm not scared of him. @ school Monday i'm just gonna keep to myself. Devery told me he was gonna come over after i have the baby and help me. Cause i now my nanny can't do everything. And @ night when she wake ^ who gonna be there to help me. DEVERY. He best know that cause he said he gonna be there for me no matter what. I want him to help me just him and me. Cause it took him and me to get Harmonee and he should have to help me. On weekends any of my friends can come and stay the night and see Harmonee. Just one friend @ a time. My doctor said i have to wait 6 week after i have Harmonee to come back to school. I don't think i'm going to have to wait that long. When i go into labor i'm going to get an EPIDURAL for pain and it numbs you from you waist and down to the tip of you tows. And when the numbing goes away that put more med. into me. So i'm not really all that scared about labor/delivery. Everybody i talk to is scared for me. Love, Baleigh and Harmonee.

Friday, August 18, 2006

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 21:55:24 GMT

HEy, everybody. I went to the doctor today. I'm 50% something, and they said my water can brake anytime now. Okay here is what some of my friends are to Harmonee: GodMama: Sha'Kedra GodDaddy: Terrence GodSister: Kelsie GodSister 2: Latia GodAunt: Tiana. When i go into labor somebody will be calling yall, and if they don't i will call yall. School starts Monday i don't want to go back.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 02:01:56 GMT

HEy, i just got back from the hospital. But i'm OK!! Harmonee ain't on her way. I will let everyone know when Harmonee is on her way. I was so happy i thought she was on her way. But not today. So Devery was up there today he didn't say anything, but it looked like he was going to cry. I will contact all the people that are the God something. If anybody want's to get her something we need diapers and wipes.

Love, Harmonee and Baleigh

Monday, August 07, 2006

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 01:47:36 GMT

HEy, i haven't been on my site in a long long time. As some of yall know i am going to have a baby in September7. Me and Devery don't talk at all so don't ask about him, but he is going to be there. My best friend is the godmama so don't ask. And if anybody got something to say about anything behind my back just come and tell me. DON'T BE SCARED!!! I'm still mad about Devery just leaving me. As soon as he found out he just stopped caring about me. So after a few weeks i just said F**K IT. But after some people leave Arkansas his sis and mom said "he gonna be wanting you back." I bet he will. I just don't need he right now cause i got people that care about me and he ain't one. Cause everyone knew we were crazy bout each other. Then one of my good friends told me that he tryed to halla @ them when me and him were going with each other. I ask him bout that he lied bout that. So that's why we don't talk no more cause broke my heart saying i was messing around with Seniors. So all my hommies need to get in touch with me. HALLA!!!

Monday, May 08, 2006

Mon, 08 May 2006 23:41:40 GMT

Hey, everybody i haven't wrote in a long time. Devery and me talk again, and besides Sha'Kedra he is my best friend. I think he mite still love me.

Friday, April 07, 2006

Fri, 07 Apr 2006 01:04:44 GMT

I miss him so much it don't make no since. I want to tell him something but i just can't. I know he ani't got no filling toward me anymore. So it ani't worth telling him anything. After this year he ani't coming back to Hot Springs. So that will be the end of all of this. Everbody is telling me to move on, but it's so hard. I try best to but no of my fillings have changed.

love, baleigh

Friday, March 31, 2006

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 02:02:59 GMT

Hey everybody i know that not that many people come to my site but i don't care. Me and Dev are not back to gether but we still talk. Love Sucks now. I think some boys like me but i don't like them. I don't care if any boys like me right now because i'm not looking for one. I'm not some one that breaks up with someone and goes out with another one the next day. It's going to take a long time. Devery was my everything. He was not just my boyfriend he was more than that.

Sunday, March 26, 2006

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 02:30:18 GMT

Hey, everybody I had a bad SPRING BREAK. To me it's like SPRING BRAKE UP. I lost the most important thing in my life. And i don't know what to do now. I just want him back, but it's a long story. And he's moving to Chacogo or how ever you spell it this summer. I'm fine for one secound and then i just start to cry out of the blue. I just want things to go back to normally. But you never know he mite call me cause i don't know if i'am going to be able to call him. Some of my friends cald be to hang out with them tonight, but i said no i had things to do. If we don't get back together everybody is going to tell me to get over him there is other boys. But that's the one I want.