HEY!!! Today was a okay day. I just don't want to go back to school. It's just hard to be going through all this, and Devery ain't here with me. He just @ home talk to gurls on the phone. And i'm @ home trying to be down all the time. He don't call to ask how are you and Harmonee doing nothing like that. All he can do is just look @ me. I try to act like i'm okay but i'm not. Nothin will be okay anymore. Cause he still got a life for now. My life to me now is just school and my babygurl. I just want Devery to know that i still care about him, but he won't talk to me. Almost all my friend act like they scared of him for i don't know what reason. I hope it's not just because he tall, but i'm not scared of him. @ school Monday i'm just gonna keep to myself. Devery told me he was gonna come over after i have the baby and help me. Cause i now my nanny can't do everything. And @ night when she wake ^ who gonna be there to help me. DEVERY. He best know that cause he said he gonna be there for me no matter what. I want him to help me just him and me. Cause it took him and me to get Harmonee and he should have to help me. On weekends any of my friends can come and stay the night and see Harmonee. Just one friend @ a time. My doctor said i have to wait 6 week after i have Harmonee to come back to school. I don't think i'm going to have to wait that long. When i go into labor i'm going to get an EPIDURAL for pain and it numbs you from you waist and down to the tip of you tows. And when the numbing goes away that put more med. into me. So i'm not really all that scared about labor/delivery. Everybody i talk to is scared for me. Love, Baleigh and Harmonee.